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6th-Aug-2012 12:06 am - Those heart freezing moments
Serious Jirou
The past few years have been rough. I won't lie about that but I feel like these heart-freezing moments need to stop. Back in April 2010, I got a phone call telling me to sit down if I wasn't already. That was the day that changed my life forever. My dad had died.

A few months later? I had another one of those phone calls. I was at work and had my phone on me and turned on. A big no-no but I'd been paranoid since the last time I'd willingly turned my phone off, that had been the day my dad died. This time it was my uncle.

And today? I just got the news that another uncle passed away. I just...part of me feels like I'm losing all my relatives. I'm afraid for my grandmother. She's in frail health and my dad dying two years ago just about killed her. The uncle that died today? He's been the one she's been supporting herself on ever since.

This wasn't how I meant to start off any posts, especially with all the new friends but I just. Yeah, I'm not sure what to say.
9th-May-2012 12:50 pm - Life go boom pt. 2
wide-eyed wonder
Whoops, been a few weeks but they've been rather hectic. So, a few weeks ago (aka the week after I moved), I had three job interviews in two days. I'm still waiting to hear back from the places but all three needed to run background checks so I'm not surprised it's taking this long to hear back. I'm figuring I'll probably hear back the start of next week. In the meantime, lots of applications have been filled out for other places. It's starting to feel like I've applied to every place that I could possibly work at.

Then there's been the family stuff. My cousin had her baby shower and then my mom had her own, the two a whole 8 days apart. My cousin's was nice but apparently there was a lot of arguing/fighting at my mom's thanks to her overgrown manchild of a baby daddy. Pretty much no one in her family likes him and even my mom's grown sick of him. I would have gone but so exhausted. We took the male cat in to be neutered that morning and he spent the night before in my room, crying and yelling because he was hungry and wanted food and his sister. And in the last few days since he's been yelling and screaming. Sounds a lot like a female cat in heat actually.

And then there was my big fall. I've taken to feeding the dogs. There are two of them, both pups around 5-6 months old. They're big but they know who's boss. The older of the two, Angel, has already reached what looks like her adult size. She's a pretty girl. Supposedly she's a German Shepherd/Black Lab mix but she looks like a Border Collie. The other is Skye. She's our trouble-maker and not actually a dog my mom wants. It's just, her baby daddy kind of dropped off the pup. My mom keeps trying to find a new home for Skye but no one wants her (she's a German Shepherd/Boxer mix and very much looks the part of both). The guy doesn't have a job right now either (he quit/was fired) so it's not like we could sneak her off to the humane society >.>

Anyway, now that I've properly described the dogs I guess I can talk about the fall. It happened the other day. I had the bowls of dog food with me and started walking down the stairs to go out to the backyard where they eat. I'm still not entirely sure what happened but I ended up falling down the stairs and smacking them hard. Like, bruised two ribs, cracked a third, and have a minor case of whiplash hard. Moving hurts though I'm sure that goes without saying.

And then there was last night. I cried so much. It hurt. My high school band director, who I have known my entire life, is retiring at the end of this school year. Last night was his last concert. It was a beautiful concert and one that was very memorable. Still, it's hard to think that Mr. B won't be at NPHS anymore.
18th-Apr-2012 09:53 pm - zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
wide-eyed wonder
I'm so tired. Originally I was going to move on Saturday. I got a phone call around 7 hours ago saying my uncle was coming tomorrow morning (should be here in roughly 12 hours in fact). Cue rapid packing of everything and taking it all out to my car. So tired........

4 hour drive and moving to a new time zone tomorrow. Then it's moving in and trying to find a job and be a real adult. I'm not ready but I am. Now if only all my friends would stop getting engaged/married/having kids!
17th-Mar-2012 12:22 am - St. Patricks post
wide-eyed wonder
6 years ago, I went on an epic field trip.
5 years ago, I bought my first car.
4 years ago, I bought a lottery ticket and won $100.
3 years ago, I heard from my oldest brother for the first time in over 10 years.
2 years ago, this is the hardest one. 2 years ago today, I spent the entire day hanging out with my dad. 3 days later on the 20th, he was rushed to the hospital where he stayed in a coma until he died on April 5th. It was sudden and just a pure coincidence I spent the day with my dad.
1 year ago, I decided to take some time off from school. It was the best decision I could have made and I wish I had stuck to it.

wonder what this year's St. Patricks will bring, what with me sick and stuck in bed.
1st-Mar-2012 05:16 pm - >
Not amused
I am already going out of my mind with boredom. Netflix, why you no have more shows I haven't seen yet? Mandatory bedrest suuuuuuucks, fyi in case you guys didn't know.

Please, give me recs for shows/movies & fanfic because I need something to do so I don't go completely crazy.
27th-Feb-2012 09:14 pm - fml
MLP nonononono
just fml.

haven't been feeling well for about two weeks. like, complete and utter crap. went to the health center a week ago and had blood drawn for a mono test. was seriously hoping it was the flu. got sent home super early from my shift Friday. have been suffering from delusions and keep chatting people when i'm half-asleep only to wake up and not remember the convo. missed work saturday. got called sunday saying don't bother coming back even though that was my first strike. got called today and told the results on the test were back and yep, got mono.

fml
12th-Feb-2012 04:35 pm - Fangirl flailing
wide-eyed wonder
Gah, I'm going to have to learn how to make icons because OMG the new season of Tenimyu and HYOUTEI!!!!!!

Umm, Jirou. I love you. Far far too much because OMG that match. Also, just everything about the new season is love.
11th-Feb-2012 05:32 pm - Season 2 Fudomine
wide-eyed wonder
You guys should be so incredibly glad that I ended up watching Tenimyu Season 2 Fudomine on my tv and thus couldn't screencap because OMG! Crys started talking about it and sent it to me and just omg. I loved first cast Seigaku but the season two cast is love. They are so incredibly adorable, particularly Kaidoh (omg he's so adorable and his voice is cute). Tezuka has the deer in the headlights look which amuses me so because it's, you know, Tezuka. Oishi <3 (he's no Tuti but it's okay because the cast is good) and seriously is the Eiji actor related to Nagayan because seriously I could swear I was watching a super young version of the guy on stage. I want to poke Momo's hair because IT DOESN'T MOVE. Seigaku is killing the ozone layer because between Momo, Oishi, and Inui, they are most definitely each using '80s amounts of hairspray and gel each.

I REALLY want an animated icon of Kamio dancing during his song because he was adorable. So incredibly adorable. I wanted to bop Shinji because he's such a bratty boy but I don't want to get eaten by the kitty.

Also, I learned that there are some things that are just pure reaction at this point, like yelling 'Fight-o!' after 'Seigaku!'
17th-Jan-2012 03:10 pm - World Go Boom
Serious Jirou
TW: Abuse, drug addiction, runaway kidsCollapse )
2nd-Jan-2012 08:00 pm - Quote Time
wide-eyed wonder
"Ask ten adults to define a slut and you’ll hear things like: a woman who has sex with lots of men; a woman who sleeps around; a woman who has casual sex; a woman who flaunts her body. They’ll probably also use words like loose, easy, trashy, cheap, and desperate. Someone might say: a woman who has the sexual appetites of a man. No one will say: a mythical creature dreamt up by people who are jealous of or threatened by female sexual expression."
- Emily Maguire- Princesses & Pornstars
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